I still have feelings for this guy. I still stutter and get stiff when he's around. But slowly, I am learning to get over my feelings and be a normal person in front of him. Though I know I am not completely believable being a normal person, I still believe that I have improved on how I handle myself when he is there. I can look at him in the eyes sometimes, and make small talks when necessary. However, I am hoping that one day all of the feelings that I had for him will go away, and I will be able to live a normal life, not worrying about what he thinks of me and patiently waiting for the ONEderful guy that the Lord has prepared to be my husband.
GOING OFF-TOPIC..
A few weeks ago, we tired to revive the youth ministry in our church. As of now, it is still in the process of building the commitment. I was assigned to be the leader of the group even though I cannot say that I had the experience needed in this position. But I believe that one day God will make our youth ministry a successful one. I have been struggling to accept this responsibility for quite a long time. And sometimes, I still can't believe that God has placed me in this position. I have rejected the Lord many times for the things that He wants me to do. And this time I can't say no.
The Lord says all I got to do is trust and believe in Him. Have faith and everything shall come into place. And now, I do.
Sunday Secrets does not always have to be about the guy I admire. Sundays are for the Lord and not for someone I wish to be my boy. I hope that time will come that when I read my blogs about him, I'll just laugh and tell myself "Good thing, you were able to move on."
DOOT 07/20/2012
